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``wolf name, bordavix, vivi, vix.
``wolf age, 3 years of age.
``wolf breed, siberian husky.
``LINK TO BIO,

xx. ` there aren't enough drugs in the world for life.

``personality, kind, loving, forgiving, brave, takes to much shit, forgives the wrong things, overly trusting.
``rank, beta female.

How's the love? How's the music? How's the self-abusiveness?
Got a lot to lose, it's breakin' your shoulders,
So you let your paranoia place your bets for you.

Sooty gray paws moved along the stone pavement underneath her, cracked and worn from age and not being taken care of, but it all went unnoticed by the ice-colored blue eyes that spoke so much, yet remembered so little. She was beautiful, she didn't know that, but anybody who looked at her usually took the time to watch her move, to notice how gracefully and carefully she stepped, as if she had somewhere to be and was headed there. They noticed other things as well, things that only could be seen on the outside. The many scars that decorated her throat and surrounded around, the nick in her ear, the way her voice was raspy when she spoke, and the way she just looked so sad, as if life had killed her on the inside without her knowing.

Only a few people could take credit for giving her these things, but she no longer remembered them. They were simply smokey whips that had floated out of her brain when she attempted at her own demise, helped by Kip, the voice inside her head that found it hilarious and wanted her to die, just so he could be free from the restraint of constantly being trapped in a canine mind. Life was a constant struggle for her, and she didn't even know why, and it bothered her. Her name was Bordavix, called Vix and Vivi by a select few, the ones that she couldn't and wouldn't remember. The ones that she loved, the ones that were her family before the tragedy.

That is something she remembers. The sorry-looking husky remembers a blurry form being attacked by two other blurry forms, and being killed. She doesn't remember who they are, and what they meant to her, but she remembers wanting to die as she watched. Bordavix raised her eyes to the perfect circle in the ceiling, the strange layouts of the apartments had intriged her, they were surrounding her in a circle, the decks and doors in a concave, she would get dizzy if she looked around to much longer. The pavement underneath her scarred paws was cool and nice, relaxing the nervousness that Bordavix had churning in her stomach.

Lowering her haunches, the pretty female sat, waiting, but not sure what she was waiting for. She lifted her head higher, and scented deeply. The smell was of old dog scents, maybe the leader of this area? She wasn't sure. " Hello? " Rang out her raspy, quiet, musical voice, wondering if anybody was here.

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Ivory paws hit the ground in a soft, gentle way. Like always, he's known for his elegance as a brute, and his ridiculously handsome attributes. Not many can resist his crystal blue eyes, and his flawless ivory pelt. His amazingly huge paws, and most of off, his wolf features. He's also part husky, and German shepherd. But you'd never know that. He's a big boy, and proud of it. He's grown into a one of a kind male, and one whom none of us who are lucky to remember him would have thought he'd turn into.

He was a strange pup, actually. Never knowing how to fight, getting raised by a brute, Shadow? He was a Wolf mix aswell, same as rupture only not ivory. The complete opposite. And for some reason this to good to be true brute took his time to adopt Rup, and raise him to be like himself. Which, successfully happened. Only Rupture softened as he got older, and attempted to become a parent. Shadow was beside himself, not understand how it happened, but accepting it.

Everyone once in a while, coming back when he wanted something. Rupture moved away, and hasnt seen his father since. As for his children. Borox fell in love, and is around the world some where, of better yet, right under Rup's nose. Tani, oh god, She could be in France for all he know's. She's never where you'd expect her, following some odd sense rather than her gut. Always getting into trouble.

Which leaves us here. This very day, when he thought his past was gone, washed away with a new chance. A new plate and he's taking it far. But it cracked when he stepped into view of this particular fae. Bordavix was her name. He recognized her instantly. Only by her gorgeous figure, which even in the worst time of year, she kept herself looking good. Rup never knew why or how he kept himself from going for her, but he did...Each time his mouth watered, it was just getting harder.

But now, life made his decision for him. He couldnt. She acted so lost, and to him, it was somewhat of a turn off. Bordavix had always known where and what she wanted. Now, she was in worse shape then himself. He circled her nose down to the ground, tail up in the air. Smelling, testing. She was real, and this was just going to happen. He couldnt fight it. Instead, he'd take her in, help her. He loved her, and couldnt leave her out there. She was a good member to a family. Great mother.

She'd fit right in...

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How's the love? How's the music? How's the self-abusiveness?
Got a lot to lose, it's breakin' your shoulders,
So you let your paranoia place your bets for you.

Hey softly feathered ears picked it up first, the soft scuffling of large, strong paws. She was slow to react, turning her head hesitantly, suddenly shy of whoever was to come in sight. Hey blue-eyes caught him, and she had to force herself to breath. Her gaze caught his, and she took a strange comfort in how his eyes matched hers. He was beautiful, but everything slowed down in time. It felt like she had seen him before, like there was more to the ivory-colored brute that she should know, but it was presently evasive from her mind. It felt like a dark, deep, black abyss that should be filled to the brim, she felt empty not knowing, it bothered her.

Clearing her throat, she shook her head and inhaled deeply, trying to rid herself of such foolish thoughts. Bordavix didn't know him, and that was that. If she did, she would remember. The female wasn't one to forget. " Hello there, I'm Bordavix. Do you think you could help me? I'm looking for the leader of these lands, and I do hope I am not trespassing too badly. " The words escaped her mouth with ease, she felt comfortable in his presence, which was strange in itself. Shaking out her fur, she lowered her haunches to the ground, waiting for a response from the beautiful brute. The gray bitch hoped that he would divulge his name as well, it would probably match his looks very well.

Her calm, cool, and collected feeling didn't last very long though. Sure enough, the devil itself erupted in her brain. ' oh hey there. he's certainly pretty, isn't he? i never thought i'd see that face again. what a pleasant surprise. too bad you have noo idea what i'm talking about. and that's how it's going to stay ' At this, her beautiful head jerked up. Her hackles raised and then relaxed, and she retained her composure. Right about now, she was ready to rip her own brain out through her ears. Bordavix refused to embarrass herself in front of someone else with her voice. Nobody needed to know.

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His head cocked to the side as she spoke first...Odd. The last time he seen her, he was getting attacked by Tani and Borox. Which, he had no idea how he'd survived. He never talked to her again, and now here they are. She acted as if she never knew him. Rupture. Rupture Micheal.

With a bob of his head, they exchanged names...again. Well honey, your looking at 'em.[/color] He stepped forward, nudging her cheek, and licking her cheek. His greeting. He certainly hasnt forgotten her. He wont hide that either. He stepped back, and let his rump fall. He had to breathe for her took her scent in. It was slightly different. Had her lifestyle changed aswell?

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How's the love? How's the music? How's the self-abusiveness?
Got a lot to lose, it's breakin' your shoulders,
So you let your paranoia place your bets for you.

' Rupture. Rupture Micheal. Well honey, your looking at 'em '

Nodding, she looked down at the ground for a moment. If she didn't have fur on her cheeks, you would be able to see the blood rush to them. Looking up at him, prepared to ask him about joining, she only had time to widen her eyes in mute surprise as he stepped closer and then nudged her cheek, and well as licking it. Raising a paw off the ground as to fend him off in surprise, she shot back a couple of steps, quite clearly caught off guard and startled. " Uhm, uhh... Hel-lo there .. I, I-I guess. " The female managed to choke out, her words stuttered and confused. She wasn't sure what was going on herself, and frankly, it was weird.

She didn't know him, and for him to lick her cheek was very odd. ' Aweeh, what, you don't remember sugar-baby? Why do you act so surprised? Many a day ago, you wanted to do that and more with Rupture. You were hell bent on claiming him as yours. Why all of a sudden tongue-tied, love? ' Came the taunting tone of Kip inside her head. Frankly, she didn't know what to do. But Kip's shit was taken to far. Lowering her head to the ground, she shook it furiously, trying to dislodge his laughter in her brain. " Why, won't you just SHUT UP for once! " She said in a very heated tone, momentarily forgetting Rupture was there.

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When she stuttered, he only laughed. He found it easy to make a fae break her train of thought. It was like...he was a seductive player? Or would that just make him a player? He didnt know, but it was so funny. It was like, winning over a baby, whom he already won over before? He was sitting as he watched her act all suprised, and caught off guard. He respected her though, and only laughed inside his head.

When she yelled, he jumped to his paws, head lowered and at a slight bend, ready for any attack. Then he remembered something from the back part of his past. Almost, or if it was, the first day Bordavix and himself even exchanged words. She mentioned she had a friend. Imaginitive friend? He didnt remember exactly. Lowering his haunches, he sat back down. Shaking his head, and a little bit of his body, relaxing again.

He watched her, amazed at how often their paths crossed. He just then, started to worry. What about Tani? Did he dare mention her name? Borox? No. He wouldnt. He's doing so good, on his clean plate. Maybe this is a sign for Bordavix and Rupture. The two of them, and them only. He would watch this fae carefully. He had to.

Ha! I'm still here Vix. Incase you forgot. I know its hard, but ignore the voices, and lets get to the reasoning your on my lands? I'm not mad, nor are you tresspassing to far. Your completely welcome here, Sweetheart.

With a small wink, he moved his head to look up where the sun hit them in a special way, causing them to be even bluer from the skies.

How much this was fun, at the same time...He felt...odd.

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[»linger.]

How's the love? How's the music? How's the self-abusiveness?
Got a lot to lose, it's breakin' your shoulders,
So you let your paranoia place your bets for you.

Ha! I'm still here Vix. In case you forgot. I know its hard, but ignore the voices, and lets get to the reasoning your on my lands? I'm not mad, nor are you trespassing to far. Your completely welcome here, Sweetheart.

She looked up at him, completely trusting, pushing Kip to the back of her mind. He knew about him, how did he know? She liked that he did, but at the same time she was still very, very confused.
" I apologize for changing the subject, I'll answer your question in a sec, but how.. just how do I know you? You seem to know me, almost very well. But I don't remember you from anywhere. " She spoke, her words soft and somewhat scared, she didn't want to offend someone so accepting of her, but her word were brutally honest. Bordavix was not known for lies, not for a long shot, and she wouldn't being now.

It was almost hurting her, she wanted to know so bad. As much as she digged mentally, she just simply couldn't recall. Oh, she had forgotten to answer his question! " Sorry for getting off track, I'm on your lands because I heard that you owned these lands, and I've heard a bit about this pack. It seems like I would fit in here very well, and I wish to express interest in joining, if you think I would do well here. " She said, sweetly, but she still had a worried look in the back of her eyes, still scared off offending her seemingly new friend.

Bordavix hadn't had many of those since.. she stopped remembering. All the female remembered was waking up, freezing cold, on the hard ice below a tall bridge. From what she could recall, she had tried to kill herself, the reason unknown to her. The sooty female had jumped through the glass, gaining all the scars on her neck/throat and chest area, and fell from the bridge on very hard and thick ice. She had thought she would break through it and drown, but apparently the world had other plans for her. Maybe this was one of them.

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I think right now isnt time for answering your questions. As much as I want to, I think there is a reason why you lost those memories. For now, its best you dont remember...

He seen the pain her eyes, and yet once again, he finds a way to hurt her. He never helped this fae in her life. Only gave her grief everyday. He thought back to that day. The accident. They made love. He finally came to his senses, and had a family with Bordavix. But after everything, her suicide attempt...The puppies were never born, Rupture left, badly injured himself. Tani and Borox ran off to god knows where.

He shook his head, and caught his tears before emotions were visible to Bordavix. Its better this way. Trust me, Vix. Please.[/color] It was a painful look he gave, pleading to her for her trust. Telling her a fibb, over a truth. It was better she wasnt pained for the accident. It wasnt her fault. Why should she feel like it was? Maybe later, he'll give her parts of their past...The good parts....You fool, what good parts? You fucked up all the good parts somehow. And your bratty daughter helped. Following your footsteps daddy. Thats all she was doing. He shook his head from his own thoughts...He was wrong.

Everyone was wrong. Because I already know you, I do think you'd be a great part of this family. Your a great mother, and will be a even better mother of your own pups someday. Your trustworthy, and loyal...In an circumstances, sadly.[/color] There, He reveled a little, no?

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How's the love? How's the music? How's the self-abusiveness?
Got a lot to lose, it's breakin' your shoulders,
So you let your paranoia place your bets for you.

' I think right now isnt time for answering your questions. As much as I want to, I think there is a reason why you lost those memories. For now, its best you dont remember... Its better this way. Trust me, Vix. Please. Because I already know you, I do think you'd be a great part of this family. Your a great mother, and will be a even better mother of your own pups someday. Your trustworthy, and loyal...In any circumstances, sadly. '

Bordavix watched him, wincing as he looked pained himself. Maybe she shouldn't have asked, maybe she shouldn't have even tried to remember. Maybe.. maybe, she didn't want to remember. if it was something that bad, why would she press it? Coughing, she brought herself, and Rupture back to the present. " Well Rup, " She began, and smiled in spite of herself. It felt so natural saying that, his nickname. " I trust you, for some strange, odd reason, it feels.. right to trust you. I don't know about the mothering thing, I've never had a pup in my care before, " Bordavix broke off for a moment, chuckling lightly to herself, a pup, as if. She wasn't mentally stable enough for that.

" But I do think you're right. If I was meant to remember, I would. Any who, I look forward to making new memories. I really need them, and this is a perfect place to start. " Came her finishing words, completed with an ivory-bright winning smile, her tail slowly swaying behind her, sweeping the dirt off the worn cobblestones beneath her. The sun went a tad higher in the sky and shone down on both of them, alighting Vix's pelt and making it sparkle and shine brightly. She straightened up a little, welcoming the warmth, and closed her eyes for a moment, enjoying the peace.

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He listened to her, not wanting to say anything about Tani...for he didnt want to hear about her let alone bringing it up to Bordavix. Sounds like a deal. I'll make you my beta female, so I can keep an eye on you...for reasons. It worried him. What if Tani and Borox were here as well. Would they attack again? Plus, with his feelings the way they are slowly getting....he's wanting her more and more. Denial isnt the best part. I suggest you getting your lands in mind, and get used to everything. If you get lost, howl. I'm the only canine here, so you'll be fine. I'll always have you near me, so you will never really be that far. You'll also meet the new members by my side, so you know them as well. He smiled and went to lick her face again. Its good to have you back, Vix. Vivi, Bordavix. My Vix. And he turned around, walking away. Almost vanishing in the air. Really, he just ran off. Getting away so he can think about things. Cry a little...boundary check. How horrible can this really be?

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